My 5th Habitversary is coming up
My 5th Habitversary is coming up. 5 whole years of loving Dr. Habit from Smile For Me! Ah!!! That's so crazy, I haven't been into a character like that for this long in forever. I don't have any ideas for an anniversary type event to do with her o_o... Maybe I should draw her or something... I dunno. Usually I like to go to the Library and print out art I've been given/art I like a lot and put it up on my corkboards. I'm always worried that something is gonna go super wrong whenever I try to do that though which is silly, but I have #anxiety. Anyway, April 9th is the anniversary, I hope I can try to make something for Habit cuz I really care about her a lot still, she's just my favorite character of all time. She makes me smile and brings me a lot fo comfort when I see her.
More about what I did today specifically, I cleaned up and reorganized my room. My shelves, closet and under my bed mostly (I have a very small room -_-;). I'm glad I did it cuz there was a lot of stuff that was just thrown around haphazardly I can't beleive I let it just sit like that for so long. Everything is for sure more organized now so yay!!! Then I ended up taking a nap cuz I was so tired from moving everything around lol.
Now to somehow put all my website page ideas into reality, but it's just so intimidating >_>. I was more motivated about it last year, but this year I've been struggling to get started with anything at all, especially if it's a creative endeavour. I don't know what's been different, it's just so hard now. It's scary to start now. I mean clearly I'm doing anything other than creative stuff if I'd rather reorganize my whole room over it.
I'm not sure how to get over this feeling, I've mentioned it before in my other posts. It's still there and hasn't changed much.I guess it's cuz, right now everything in the world around me has been really awful and I have to keep thinking about it and dealing with it all the time every single day. It feels like I can't really get a break from it. Idk. I can't really talk about it very much cuz it's been personal stuff alongside the News bleh. I don't have anyone to talk to about it either cuz of how my mom is and my dad is already dealing with enough stuff, he doesn't need more of my issues ontop of it.
Okay well, I'm gonna try to head to bed now. I know I can get pretty depressed on my posts sometimes. Hard not to when you've got it in your brain forever.
~✿Buggy